still recovering from the pictures of one direction in australia shirtless…
You’re so beautiful!
i ship you with liam(:
best friend (1D): louis
best friend: Kendall Jenner
favorite thing about you: liam loves your energetic spirit and the way you are always nice to people.
children names: 2 girls: Leanne Rae & Madison Louise 1 boy: Jared Brock
You are so pretty!! you have a beautiful smile(:
i ship you with Liam!
secretly in love with you: Niall
whenever i want to know something about 1d, their website is literally the last place i think to look lol
HAPPY ONE YEAR BIRTHDAY TO OUR BLOG….LOVE YOU ABBY AND I LOVE YOU FOLLOWERS AND I LOVE YOU HARRY, LOUIS, LIAM, NIALL, AND ZAYN AND FUCK YOU FOR PREOCCUPYING 93% OF MY LIFE FOR THE PAST YEAR <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
ugghhhh you are just so naturally pretty it kills me
i ship you with harry (of course)
So many thoughts had entered your mind as you stared back at the girl in the mirror, but disappointment was a reoccurring word the floated through your brain.
big thighs. uneven skin tone. floppy arms. unflattened stomach. ratty hair. manly features.
You criticized every inch of your body, as you stood in front of the reflecting surface you tried so hard to avoid as much as possible. Your hands grabbing at your stomach, legs, and arms, hoping that the extra skin would disappear as you touched it.
“Mariana! Are you all right in there? how are the dresses fitting?” echoed your best friend’s voice through the small door of the dressing room.
“Yeah, yeah, I’m good…but I don’t think I like any of these…they aren’t my..style.” you tried to not let you disappointment show in your voice show as you spoke.
“Come on then, let me see..” Next thing you knew, the petite, model like figure of your best friend, Michelle, walked in. You loved her to death, but you couldn’t help but envy her girlish features and perfect body. “Mari…you look beautiful! I don’t understand why you don’t like it.”
It was easy for her to say, everything looked good on her. You uncomfortably shifted your weight to your other foot, trying to look as insecure as you felt, “I don’t know, it’s okay.”
“You should get it, Liam will loooooove it!” she was always so positive and happy. Something you never felt. You finally agreed, knowing that you wouldn’t have liked any other dress you looked at. “Let’s go get ready, we don’t have time!”
Oh yeah, the party…
You guys returned to your loft in the city, and began getting ready for One Direction’s end of the year extravaganza. They were your best friends, and you loved them, but you always hated being seen with them in public, because you knew how critical the fans were. You and Michelle finished up the last touches of your guys make up, and recurled some last minutes strands of hair, before taking one last look in the mirror. For almost a second you thought you looked alright, until Michelle spoke up next to you, bringing you back to reality.
“Well, I guess we should get going then!” she said in the most chipper way, as she reached for her bag, looking flawless, as usually.
When you guys got to the house the boys had rented for the night, you quickly got inside, dodging the heavy rain outside, and were welcomed by a smiling Louis.
“Hello, girls! You look lovely!” he kissed each of their cheeks before walking them back through the crowd, back to the rest of the boys. You immediately saw him smiling and talking with Niall. Liam. Your long time crush and best friend. You couldn’t help but smile to yourself. He was just so cute, and sweet, and happy.
“MARIANA!” Liam engulfed you in a tight embrace, as you inhaled his familiar scent. He let you go and looked at you in, almost what seemed like, amazement. “Mar..you look…incredible..” He smiled and gave you a sincere smile that made the butterflies flutter in your stomach. You wanted to believe him. You wanted to believe that the boy you loved, thought you were beautiful, but you couldn’t help but think of all the other girls that he could have. That smidgen of hope vanished at the thought.
“Let’s go get a drink, shall we?” Harry spoke up as everyone finished up with the hello’s. You felt uncomfortable, not wanting to drink, so you stayed put.
“You go ahead, I’m going to hang back with Mariana.” You heard Liam speak up, making your cheeks blush at the fact he turned down a drink to be with you. He didn’t turn it down for you, you idiot. Critical thoughts overflowing your brain, only to have Liam snap you out of it with his calming voice. “You alright, love? You look a bit…down…” His worried expression made you want to kick yourself, although he did look insanely adorable.
“No, I’m fine…you know me, I just get uncomfortable at parties is all.” You said with a humorous tone to it.
“Let’s get out of here then. Just you and me. Let’s go to the little diner a block from here.” Your stomach was doing olympic style somersaults and flips at this point. The only thing you could do was respond with a smile and a nod.
Next thing you knew, you were at a quaint little diner with no one else around but the boy you loved. You guys made jokes, talked about his tour life and your college life, and played little games that made you forget all the little things you hated about yourself.
Suddenly, you heard a large “bang” against the windows and when you looked over, a crowd of paparazzi and fans swarmed the outside of the building. Before you could think about it for too long, Liam grabbed you by the hand and began leading you out of the diner, calling a cab.
Squeezing through the large amounts of people you could hear various “Liam, I love you!”s and the paps saying “Over here! Over here! Is that your girlfriend?” You could ignore them with ease, until you heard a group of girls yell one thing that rang in your ear.
“What an ugly bitch…Liam could do so much better…She doesn’t deserve him whatsoever.”
Liam hauled you into the nearest cab, jumping in after you, and looked over at you sympathetically. You could tell he heard those girls by his expression. You put on the most fake smile you could conjure up, and told him “it’s whatever…” He didn’t buy it for one second, but he wasn’t going to badger you on about it.
As soon as you guys reached the house the boys had been renting, you got out of the cab and ran into the house. You two must have been out for a while, because it seemed as though everyone had left. “MARIANA..” you heard Liam yell behind you, coming up the steps to the door.
“Don’t worry, I’m fine, I just need to go to the bathroom.” Before he, or the rest of the boys could respond, you were locked away in the bathroom.
“What an ugly bitch…Liam could do so much better…She doesn’t deserve him whatsoever….What an ugly bitch…Liam could do so much better…She doesn’t deserve him whatsoever….What an ugly bitch…Liam could do so much better…She doesn’t deserve him whatsoever.”
Those words echoed in your brain repeatedly. You felt tears beginning to leak out of your eyes, and you weren’t going to stop them. You just wanted to wash away all the pain and hatred you had against yourself. You wanted to actually feel beautiful for once in your life. By this point, your tears were unstoppable. You turned on the shower to as hot as possible, hoping it would drowned out your crying, and the pain you were feeling. You leaned back in the stingy, hot water, coming down. Washing away your make up and ruining your hair, but not washing away the the things you hated about yourself. You couldn’t help but continue crying and crying and asking yourself why you couldn’t be like Michelle or Eleanor or any other beautiful girl you saw at the party. Why?
Suddenly, the door flung open to reveal a nervous and worried Liam Payne. “Mari….” he whispered in a sad tone. You couldn’t help by cry more at the sight. Had you disappointed him? You hoped not. He ran over to you and cringed at the hot water coming from the shower head. He quickly turned it off and wrapped you in his arms. He kissed your forehead, repeatedly whispering “it’s okay, it’s okay.” He wiped away the bits of mascara under yours, and looked at you. “Mariana..You aren’t anything like what those girls were saying. You are amazing. It hurts me to see you in such pain over this. You are so beautiful. Even more so without the make up and hair done. I don’t care if you are 100 or 1000 pounds. I don’t care if you have ‘uneven facial features’, or ‘don’t have a tan’, or ‘don’t muscular arms’, or whatever you say. I don’t care about any of those things. You are perfect to me. All I want is for you to be happy, because, to be honest,…I….I’m in love with you, Mariana…I really am.”
You couldn’t help but feel an overwhelming amount of happiness for the first time in months. You smiled and couldn’t speak. Liam leaned down and kissed you softly. In that moment, all you cared about was the fact that Liam Payne, the boy you had loved for years, loves you back. “I’m in love with you to, Liam.”
my names steph! ship me pretty please? (: xx
i ship you with zayn or harry(:
i ship you with liam(:
children’s names: 3 girls - Shayla, Madison, & Hannah
your song: to make you feel my love - adele
couple name: Lira
best friend (1d): louis
favorite thing: Liam loves the way you can make something fun, no matter what. You guys could be at the gas station, and you can make him laugh and smile just the same as if you were at an awards show.
you’re SOOO gorgeous..
i ship you with zayn(:
your song: to be with you - the honey trees
best friend(1d): niall
secretly in love with you: harry
i ship you with liam(:
i ship you with harry(:
you guys are both insanely gorgeous!
you’re gorgeous! (just like your sister(:)
i ship you with liam(:
children’s names: 2 girls - Lola & Marina
secretly in love with you: louis
best friend (1D): niall
you’re absolutely GORGEOUS…let me have your face. ok.
i ship you with harry(:
best friend (1D): zayn
your song: kiss me - ed sheeran
favorite thing: harry loves the way you are spontaneous and will go on tour with him, and aren’t afraid to try new things.